sassy.

friendships. they are so good. in one minute they understand you when you are crying, and in another minute they make you laugh hysterically.

Exhibit A:

friends are supportive. there when you need them the most. there when you are freaking out about something so small and are hyperfocused on something because it is the "end of the world" and "life won't go on". i still remember my first summer at kanakuk after david's funeral, going back to kabin 17 at kanakuk for the last five days of first term. my girls had draped all of their bras around the room and put signs everywhere that stated "we support you, jenn", "lift a sister up" "we're here to support you" ha. that was so clever and yet, so hilarious. 

i look at my community of people the Lord has surrounded with me with. from my incredible, stable, and solid family that i grew up with who showed me the love of Him first before anything else. then i see the group of girls the Lord surrounded me with in high school. man, we could laugh and be silly. and yet, there were two that challenged me to grow in my faith and truly served as friends that were like "iron sharpening iron". i remember thinking i could never have friends closer than these friends. then i ventured off to college station and there i met so many incredible, different, diverse people who challenged me to think for myself, seek truth, and believe it fully. these people allowed me to let down, reveal my insecurities, be NOT okay, and to live and love deeply in my relationships. now post college world. i REALLY never thought i could find friends deep who were anything like those in college station. i'm still growing deeper with these friendships but the Lord has immensely blessed me with girls who are seeking truth deeply. they are supportive and have hearts to be the hands and feet of our Father. i have been blessed with girls who are not okay with just sitting back and being spectators of the faith. they are willing to get their hands dirty. the first to give up a saturday and serve. the first to help one another out on a mission trip or give to something they are passionate about. God is good. He knows my heart. He knows my need right now in those hard days for deep, meaningful, and spirit-filled convos. He knows my hurts, my pains, my desires. sometimes He leads us to a fire, to an uncomfortable place, to a refining state. yet He never leaves. He never forsakes us. INSTEAD, He holds our hand in the fire. He takes us to a place where we are too uncomfortable on our own. to a place we must lean on Him for guidance, for rest, for direction. that is faith. that is where trust comes into play. not knowing what the next two months might look like and even though right now might be a little hard, He's got it. He sees my life in totality. and He has held me thus far. the Lord is good and worthy of far more credit than we give Him. I look forward to the day i can look back and say "there is no way i could have gotten through that or be where i am today besides the Lord's grace". He is good. He is faithful. He is all we need.