So here's the scoop of the last 6 months:
I quit my full time job back in April and have spent the last 6 months figuring out what in the world I want to do with my life. I have had thoughts of continuing in marketing/sales, becoming an art director, graphic design, ad agency, public relations.. nothing really worked out or felt completely clear.
I have been wrestling with my selfishness and my pride over these past few months. I wanted to find some profession that when people met me they would think "wow! you are awesome!!". Isn't that ridiculous? Who even cares? And the people that have those "cool-sounding jobs" usually are the one who work 76.4334 hours a week and secretly hate it. Right?
How quick am I to find my identity, my worth, my reputation in something other than the Lord. Work, relationships, friendships, small groups, people, reputation.. when you place them as ultimate they ALL at one point or another fail you, disappoint you, lie to you, and ultimately leave you empty and feeling more useless and worthless than you ever did in the first place. Anyone else out there feel this way?
May we cling to the Creator and Perfecter of our faith. He is..
Holy.
Loving.
Faithful.
Never failing.
Committed.
Sacrificing.
Worthy of our highest praise.
Life-giving.
Purposeful.
Righteous.
He is.
All of this to say... after much soul searching {drum roll please....}
I'm getting certified to be a junior high math teacher with possibly high school math and english following. Crazy, right?? Left field, I know. However, after surveying my heart and my passions, this completely lines up with what I want to do.. Invest in women younger than me, make a difference in those awkward, formative years of middle school, have summers off to explore part time mission trip options, be invested in my church, and have time to be available to others.
The Lord has been faithful yet again. Looking forward to what He is going to continue to do in this crazy time of life.. until then, I will be counting the days until I get to relive junior high. What will be the present day pogs, jenkos, and hemp necklaces? Too soon to tell... but this is going to be good:)
